ChaoticMinds

By Heather

I’ve been driving around nonstop with my new car. Nobody could tell me anything, especially since its summer. I didn’t really have any friends in school. I just kept to myself, a quiet nerd is what people would call me if they knew how smart I was. Taking that into consideration, if my mother knew half the things I did she would lose her shit.

I sat up in my bed on my phone. As of lately I never put it down because of Kyree. Ever since I’ve met him at that kickback, I have been talking to him nonstop. Kyree is 38 and I just turned 17 about a month ago. The only person that knows about our relationship is my best friend Alana…and even she doesn’t approve. Kyree and I aren’t in an actual relationship with a title. But, we have been having sex. He took my virginity. I thought he would freak out about me being a virgin but he was happy to take it. Everything has been going so smooth with us and I know I only want him. I don’t know exactly how he feels but I made it my mission to find out.

“Hey sexy”. Kyree texted me. I smiled as I replied.

Good morning daddy. How is everything going your way?

For some reason I have been feeling sick for the last two weeks. My mom scheduled a doctor’s appointment for next week. I got up from the bed and went to sit in front of the toilet on the floor expecting to throw up very soon. My phone vibrated. I looked to see Alana texted me.

How do you feel this morning?” She asked.

Sick as fuck…I don’t know what’s wrong with me Chica…” I responded back. As soon as I placed my phone on my legs I began to vomit into the toilet. Thankfully I have my own bathroom so I don’t have to worry about my mother barging in.

Nahla…when you’re feeling a little better come over.” She texted me back.

Kyree texted me back as well. “Great now that I am talking to you. How about you?” And I didn’t respond back. I quickly went down stairs and fixed me some ramen noodles. Usually something salty helps to ease my queasiness. Avoiding my mother, I took my food upstairs to my room. I ate, took a quick shower, and left going to Alana’s house.

I pulled up to Alana’s crib and parked in front of her house.

“Hey beautiful.” I said to Alana with a huge smile on my face.

“Hey sexy.” She stated back to me returning the grin.

We walked to her bedroom. As she closed the door, I laid on her bed and pulled out my phone to text my mother informing her of where I was and finally responding to Kyree.

I am great sexy. Am I seeing you today?” I asked Kyree.

Alana came and sat beside me.

“Nahla, when is your period due?” She asked me.

“In a couple days? I don’t know. My period isn’t regular.” I said to her.

Alana pulled out a box with a digital and non-digital pregnancy test.

“I am not pregnant.” I stated firmly.

“Well it should be easy for you to take both pregnancy test with no issues then.” Alana stated with just as much hostility.

I snatched the box from Alana and stormed to the bathroom. I. closed the door to the bathroom and sat on the toilet looking down at the box. Pregnancy was never a thought that came into my mind until now. I took my phone out of my pocket and opened my period tracker app. I stared in complete shock realizing that I have only had one period since school was out and that was a couple days after the kick back when I met Kyree.

I quickly took the non-digital pregnancy test out of the box, peed on it, put the lid on it, and sat it on the counter. I took the digital test out and took that as well just in case. After setting the test on the counter beside the other, I washed my hands and walked out of the bathroom.

“What are the results?” Alana asked me.

“I didn’t look at it.” I said softly to her playing with my hands.

I knew what the results were and I didn’t want the tests to prove what I felt in my gut.

Alana walked into the bathroom.

“Nahla…you’re pregnant.”

I didn’t cry. I just sat on Alana’s bed toddling with my phone.

Alana sat down beside me. We sat in silence for a couple minutes.

“We have to get rid of the test. I don’t want your people thinking its anyone here.” I said to her.

She nodded and we laid back on her bed. I snuggled into her and she cut the TV on.

I didn’t want to pretend like I didn’t know that I was pregnant. I just didn’t want to talk about it or think about it at the time. I would figure out a way to disappoint my mom. I was supposed to be a senior this year. And I want to finish school, I just didn’t want to think about all that right now. I could get Alana to come with me to see how far along I was. Maybe I could ride out the first trimester. That is when miscarriage is most likely to happen. I tried distracting myself with the movie that Alana had playing on the TV but I decided to just close my eyes and try to fall asleep.

“Nahla wake up.” Alana said to me shaking me.

I opened my eyes and looked at my phone to see that Kyree has been blowing my phone up.

“Wassup?” I asked Alana.

“Kyree knows you’re here. He’s outside. I haven’t said anything to him but…”

“Just ignore him. I don’t want to talk to him right now.” I said cutting her off midsentence.

I dozed back off to sleep. In my dream I seen me at school with a huge belly. All the kids were laughing at me. I woke up crying with Alana gently shaking me.

“Are you okay?” She asked me gently.

I just nodded my head.

By the time I decided to move it was late at night.
“I’m going home Alana.” I said to her as I began to get up.

“Do you want me to come and stay with you tonight?” She asked me.

“If you wouldn’t mind.” I responded quietly.

Alana gathered some clothes and we drove to my house in my BMW. I parked outside my house and cut my car off. I laid my head back against my seat, closed my eyes and began to cry.

“Nahla, I don’t want to stress you out any more than you already are. You know that I am here for you regardless of whatever decisions you decide to make.” Alana said to me.

I nodded.

“I know.” I whispered to her.

“I have a doctor appointment next week. My mom doesn’t go with me anymore. I can cancel it and sometime this week go to a clinic to see how far along I am.” I said to her.

I looked at her as she nodded in agreeance.

“I want you to come with me. Maybe if I am still in my first trimester I can see if the pregnancy will stick and have more time to tell my mom. But if I have a miscarriage, then I won’t say anything.”

“Okay. That sounds like a plan.” She said to me.

“I don’t want to talk to Kyree until I know what I am going to do Alana.” I said to her.

“That’s understandable.” Alana said to me.

We finally decided to get out of my car and go to my room. I noticed a car slowly drive by with tinted windows, but didn’t pay it no mind.

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING PARKED OUTSIDE MY HOUSE?”

Alana and I woke up to my mom yelling outside.

“I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN YEARS! WHY THE HELL ARE YOU HERE?”

Alana and I ran to the door to see that Kyree was standing outside his car with a blunt in his mouth.

“Mom… I-I can…”

“Nahla. Meet your deadbeat ass father.” She stated angrily.

Alana and I immediately looked at each other in shock and that’s when I realized that I’ve made the biggest mistake in my life.

“Hey baby girl.” He stated with a slick smile.

I looked at him with tears immediately streaming from my eyes.

I’m pregnant by my dad.

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