Gift From God

Someone once tried to convince me that I was a good woman. You know, completely innocent to all my surroundings and all of the demons hidden within it. That I was someone light and my loving heart. And pureness was a gift that was meant to be given to the man that God placed into my life. That me, myself was a gift from God himself and any man would be blessed to have me.

I’m sure that was true at one point… at least the good woman part. The rest is a load of bullshit. “God” placed many men into my life; and if not every last one of them added to. The blackness that stained my “loving” heart. And if not every last one, bet on my pureness to see who can take it from me, ripping away the only gift I had.

Think about the story of Adam and Eve. Not the entire story, but just one important part.

God created Eve from a rib that was within Adam. They came in a pair. So, who’s rib do I come from? Why do. I have to search for the “man” that “God” made especially for me when he gave Eve to Adam clear as day? They didn’t have a wedding ceremony, did they? They didn’t date before taking an oath with God to only be with each other until death due them apart. God planted Eve there, taking the rib from Adam and said “here bro. This yo girl, reproduce.”

Each time I just knew I found the person whose rib I guard inside of me, and I gave away my pureness… or what was left anyway.

No one wants love anymore. Now everything is. Made into a game. My pureness is gone. My loving heart is black. Does that. Now take away my gift? Am I still worthy of the man that “God” used to create me? Or is it because of my stupidity that the entire world is ruined?

Published by Heather Dodson-Frazier

Hello Readers, My name is Heather. My birthday is in November making me a Scorpio. I am currently serving active duty in the army. I love animals, I love cooking, and I love to write. I fall in love easily, and even if it doesn’t work out I always leave an impact on the person I fell in love for. I see the good in everyone which can be a good and bad thing. I have decided to create this blog to share my thoughts with the world. This blog is named ChaoticMinds because that describes me perfectly. My mind is always all over the place. I am a very emotional being and I express the way I feel through writing. This blog is going to be very personal. I am forcing myself out of my comfort zone, and sharing my ChaoticMind with you guys so that anyone who can relate can see that they are not alone. I would like to mention, that although this blog is going to be personal, please realize that it is writing. Some things will not be real. When I say personal, I love to mix my reality with my mind. The blogs that you will read will have my reality mixed with thoughts that I feel sound good in writing. My thoughts are always all over the place, my sentence structure will not be correct, my grammar will be all wrong, I may use too many commas or have run on sentences. The way my mind works is the way I write. (Although, I do a lot better when I have professional writing that needs to be done.) Most of the blogs that I will post will be relateable. My goal is to allow others that have experienced similar situations in life to realize that there is someone out in this world that understands them. If you plan on allowing children on my blog, please monitor what they read. A lot of things will be sexual and dark. Being that I am a Scorpio, those are two of my main qualities. Feel free to contact me with topics that you would love for me to discuss. I will love for this blog to be interactive. You can ask me any questions that you like, and I promise in return to be as honest as possible. I have recently added a new page about my natural hair and have plans on adding my weight loss journey. This is going to wrapped around a lot of things. Please enjoy and SHARE SHARE SHARE! -Heather

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