I don’t like girls.
Well, I’m not attracted to girls in any way.
I do however appreciate the beauty that beautiful girls display.
I’ve always been fond of the sexuality that girls showcase.
And I definitely don’t discriminate against color or race.
But, how do I tell a gay girl that I may be gay?
–but only for her…
That her personality is something that I long to be around every day.
That I love the way she smiles and the deep dimples on her face.
That I love the way she talks because her accent is sexy and her teeth are so straight.
And her eyes glisten like the suns beaming rays.
And that I love when she corrects me and puts me in my place.
And every night for the past couple of days, her sweet face is all I dream about when I lay.
But, how do I tell a gay girl that I may secretly be gay.
But not gay in a way that I’m attracted to every girl that seems to walk my way.
That I could sit in silence or watch the same Netflix movies over and over again on replay.
That I want her to teach me everything there is to know about her so I can reciprocate.
Like, what her favorite color is, her favorite movie, or what games she likes to play.
Or the things that pleases, or doesn’t please her sexually so it’s in the back of my brain.
For her to be comfortable enough to tell me her secrets or the things that bother her each day.
What her favorite food is, what she’s allergic to, or to what God does she pray…
I don’t know how to tell a gay girl that I may secretly be gay.
That I want her to teach me everything so I know my role in the play.
Because I don’t want her to be scared that I may go back straight.
That as long as I got her, everything will be okay.
How I know it’s a short time, but I’ve been crushing so hard for a while. I just didn’t know what to say.
Me approaching a gay girl feels so out of place.
But I want to explore this “gay thing”, but only with her in my face.
To help me figure out what I’m attracted to because I know in my heart this is not a mistake.
I just want to see where this goes in her time, with her pace.
Because I know gay girls don’t take girls seriously that are straight.
But with this gay girl I would be the gayest straight girl in the world and definitely not be ashamed.
But I am terrified and fucking scared to tell this gay girl I’m definitely and secretly gay…
–but only for her.